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when my alarm went of this morning, i didn't want to get up. i probably snoozed it like 5 times. my alarm goes off at 6am. i didn't get out of bed til 645ish. the crazy part was this weird dream i had. i dreamed that hulk hogan was my step-dad of some sort. Or at least he was a guardian or someone in charge of me. we ended up going to some public event that he had to be at. it was at some kind of university or something. there were a bunch of people and we ran into some chick that he was in to. the crazy part was that I was in to her also as soon as i saw her. i don't remember what happens but we decide to leave and it me and my buddies, and then hulk and his chick. i decided to slow down to watch her leave. she was so beautiful. but as she exited my viewpoint, i turned around to see everyone gone. i was all alone in this giant ass university not knowing which way to go. i just roamed the whole place not to find a soul in sight. i eventually woke up because all i did was walk around and get lost and i was starting to panic. hahaha. yeah, i told you it was weird.

i felt all out of it today at work. i kept sneezing. at least this time my nose wasn't all runny.

when i got to bowling league tonight, i felt all energized. i spent the whole day at work in a slump. but now that i was somewhere fun, i had all the energy in the world. i didn't feel sick at all.

we started doing this $! bet at bowling league. every time you leave up a split or 10 pin, $1 is on the line. if you convert your split or 10 pin, everyone owes you a dollar. And if you don't convert, you owe everyone else a dollar. it's just a nice little competition to get us going. it makes things interesting. you don't wanna pay the other people any money so you're more to determined to hit your shot. otherwise i'd think that we'd just say "oh well" every time one of those shots came up.

nine

i woke up feeling like a bag of crap today. my nose was runny all day and i was coughing up a storm. people were telling me to go home at work. but i need to do overtime to pay for some recent purchases and for holiday shopping. you gotta do what you gotta do.

i ran for the first time in two weeks. i thought i'd be all out of shape but i think the rest did me good. i didn't feel as winded as i normally do but the air outside was super dry. that didn't help my nose at all. it seemed like i was tasting blood near the end of my run. i dunno, i'll give it another go tomorrow. we'll see how i feel. i wanna sweat out this sickness of mine. i dont wanna take a break from running to get over this cold. it's just way too hard to get back in the groove of things when you stop. and i've been stopped for two weeks. it's time to get back on track.

it's almost 9pm and i feel extra tired already. i guess it's time to crash.

payce.

eight

i did nothing today except watch football and eat. hahaha. that's a typical sunday.

i didn't really feel good all day so i had no desire to go to my pool table and just shoot around. i felt like i had been slapped in the face. both sides. my face felt all hot, especially my ears, and my eyes burned. i dunno what it is. i didn't do anything crazy last night so i have no excuse. hopefully i feel better tomorrow.

chargers kicked the colts ass. that's what i was expecting. peyton manning sucks against the 3-4 defense. i hope we get to see them in the playoffs. assuming we make the playoffs. speaking of which, the bill for playoffs tickets came in the mail this week. i don't really have any cash at the moment due to my recent new york trip and pool table purchase.

i gotta sleep super early tonight. it's now 10pm. i've been sleeping at 5am every night since last tuesday. i think me feeling sick is gonna help me go to sleep. i usually don't sleep til 1 or 2am. i think now is a good time to call it quits.

payce.

seven

today was another lazy day. i didn't do much except watch football, eat, and play pool. i woke up around noon from a call from one of my coworkers, timmy. we're having a company pool tournament soon so he wanted to come over and play pool.

timmy, my other coworker john, richard and gerlei came over to play pool. timmy brought over beers and chips. john brought chicken nuggets and fries. i was cooking on the grill too. it was funny when i started the grill though. i had the heat on super high and i lit a lighter to start the flames. the flame burst and burnt all the hair off my arms. it was kinda scary and funny at the same time. note to self: turn the heat on low when starting the grill. hahahaha.

timmy is actually pretty damn good at pool. he's in a league and plays every week. i'm glad he's on my team for the company pool tournament. john is ok. he has a soft touch and he's fairly accurate as long as he doesn't have a long or straight shot. i'm just learning so i got a long way to go. but i have a pool table so i can get the most practice.

diana came over after everyone left. diana is a good friend of mine that i've known since i was a kid. she is probably the craziest girl i've ever met. she is just down to do whatever. it's like having one of the dudes around, except she's sexy. we just had beers and chatted about our recent trips and her current dating situation and all the shenanigans that we get into. it was good to catch up. she's only in town until wednesday so we're trying to make the most of it. she's a flight attendant so she travels all the time. she might be coming over again tomorrow just to hang out and watch some football and maybe even play more pool. i hope she does.

it's another one of those nights where i dont wanna go to sleep. i just wanna watch some movies or play music or something. i should sleep though so i can get up early to watch football.

payce.

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i got woken up earlier than expected this morning. i went to bed around 5am cuz i was finishing off the rest of season 1 of glee. so i was expecting to wake up around noon or so. but i got a call at 10am from my mom asking to get picked up. they went black friday shopping and they bought stuff too big to fit in their car. i happen to drive a truck. so they called me. when i got there, they weren't even done shopping yet. so i waited another 30 minutes for them to finish up. that kinda pissed me off. i was expecting them to be waiting by the car or at the store front ready to load all the goods into my truck. i could have been sleeping still. oh well, i love my parents. i'll do anything for them. (:

tonight we went to korean bbq and karaoke for my buddy joel's b-day. i thought there would be a grip of peeps showing up but i was wrong. there was only 8 of us but it was cool. it was me , joel, his sister, her husband, abie, jennifer, jawee, and ernie. everyone there, with the exception of joel, his sister, and her husband, i haven't seen in a long while. so it was good to have them around. i didn't really eat at the korean bbq joint cuz my parents came over to my house a few hours earlier and we had dinner. but i did sing my heart out in karaoke. i know i can't sing very well but i enjoy it. we did a bunch of hits like bon jovi's "livin' on a prayer", ludacris ft. justin bieber in "baby", lionel richie's "hello", wham's "careless whisper", rick astley's "never gonna give you up" and so much more. i can't even remember them all. we were there for like 4 hours but it didnt feel that long. you can never go wrong with karaoke + alcohol.

i'm tired as shiite.

payce.

five

today was thanksgiving. i woke up super late. like around noon, cuz we stayed up playing pool all night and then i did a glee marathon. hahaha. i ended up going to my cousins' house and ate a grip of food. turkey, ham, roast beef, pancit, mashed potatoes, and so much more. we went about 3 rounds before we tapped out. and then we played madden 11 on xbox. i suck at xbox. im so used to the ps3 controller that i felt all weird just holding an xbox controller. my cousin and i are both hardcore chargers fans so i forbade any of us from using the chargers. we went random teams. and guess which team i randomly got? the team i hate the most. the raiders. all my other cousins were laughing their asses off cuz of this. i dont blame them. i probably would be too if i werent me. hahahaha. we never got to finish our game cuz i had to leave and go to my uncle's house. i was losing 7-0 though. i'll count it as a loss.

last year's thanksgiving, i went to my uncles house and walked in.....to the twilight zone. one of the first faces i saw was my coworker! wtf? i thought i walked into the wrong house. he's one of the top dogs at work and i had no idea we had mutual relatives. it's not that i dont like him or anything but i dont like talking about work when im not at work. hahahaha. but yeah, i was at my uncle's house today and there were alot of my cousins that i havent seen in a while. needless to say, we all got pretty faded. someone got put in a boston crab, a teabag occurred, and also an assface. it was super fun. it's just a damn shame that i live almost an hour away.

me, my cousin charlie, and his brother in law anthony are all planning to go to thailand in march. im super stoked about this. anthony used to live in thailand so he was telling me all about the good stuff over. this got me so excited. we were game planning our strategy and thinking of all the things we can do and palces we can visit. i'm definitely gonna be bringing my slr there. i gotta start saving up an paying my debts off so i can enjoy this trip as much as possible.

my life is so good right now. one love.

payce.

four

my pool table got delivered today. it's pretty dope. i love it. my buddy richard came over and we played for like 4 hours straight. my back hurts from all the playing we did. but it was well worth it. i have a feeling that tomorrow i will do the same damn thing and i will love it.

i did a glee marathon after playing pool. i love that show. i wish i was on it. it makes me feel good about being a musician. it's just a feel good show. i can relate to allt he things that those kids are going through. being outcasts and working hard at something you love even though it's not the "cool" thing to do.

tomorrow is thanksgiving and i've already been munching like a madman. i'm pretty sure i gained about 10 lbs this week. i'll probably add another 5 lbs tomorrow alone. i guess i'll just have to go running like crazy after the holidays.

my toes are cold. it's time to hit the sack.

payce.

three

tuesdays are one of my favorite days because of bowling league. for the past couple years now i've been in a bowling league on tuesday nights. this season however is the first time i've had a handpicked team with people i care about and trust. all my other teams have been with people i met there. don't get me wrong, some of the people i've met are great. but it's a different feeling when you're playing with someone you've known for a while. there's just that connection that you cant beat. tonight for example was one of those moment that only friends can have. my teammate turns to me and asks "what kind of detergent do you use?" "i dunno. tide of something." "why?" "cuz you smell good." "that's not detergent.....that's carne asada!!!" hahahahaha. i can only have those types of conversation with people i care about. and the funny thing is, she kept smelling me throughout the night. i guess she really did love the smell of tide.

i dont have work tomorrow cuz i ordered a pool table and it's getting delivered so i asked for the day off. i'm pretty stoked to have a pool table. i've always wanted one. it's something that me and my dad can do. i also plan to do alot of cleaning and preparation for thanksgiving. this year, we're having t at my house since i'm a new homeowner. hopefully i can be a good host.

i think i've been sleeping wrong cuz my back and chest have been hurting. it kinda feels like i did waaaaaay too many pushups and pullups. i know it can't be that because i can't do any pullups and i can barely do pushups. and i recently added one more pillow to the mix so that changed the angle of how i was laying down.

i love it when it's cold. it feel good to just bundle myself up in my blanket and crunch up to try to get warm. it's a good feeling. i sleep so much better when i'm cold. but thing is, i always wake up hot. i kick off my blanket and it's just musty heat all around me. hahahaha

that's it for now. time to hit the sack.

payce.

two

went to the monday night football game tonight. chargers whooped the broncos' asses. just as expected. i love tailgating and being at the games. it's just a fun environment and everyone is having a good time. the thing i don't like though is having to transport all the gear around. i'm in charge of the grill, tent, chairs, tickets, and pretty much anything else of importance. all the big stuff are with me. i'd really like it if i got some help every now and then. but other than that, i get to be with my closest friends and we can forget about the real world for a few hours and just enjoy the moment. thank you chargers for all the wonderful times. hopefully we can win a superbowl in my lifetime. that way all the haters can shut up about "how many rings do you have?" i hate that argument. especially when the last ring your team won was 20 years ago.

tomorrow is a potluck at work. i used to participate in potlucks at work but everyone there is a vulture. there are alot of good stuff that people bring but it always gets eaten with the quickness. if you're not first in line, then you aint gettin' none. some poeple just have no respect for others and just take as much as they can get. some people don't even bring food to share and just take. that is why i stopped participating in these potlucks. too many inconsiderate people. i'll just bring my own lunch and enjoy what i have.

my face burns. it feels like i got sunburnt but i wasn't out in the sun. it's probably wind burn cuz it was cold tonight and my face is the only thing that was exposed to the elements.

i don't want to sleep. i feel like just staying up and maybe watching a movie or reading a book or something. but it is 20 past midnight and i got work tomorrow morning. i also have bowling league tomorrow night, which i am looking forward to. i love the fact that i now have friends on my team. the past 2 years i have been bowling with random people. i mean, i became friends with them after the fact. but it's just a different feeling bowling with people i can trust and have known for a long time. i can just be myself and say what i want to and act how i want to. i no longer have to hold back in fear of the teammates lashing out against me or not wanting me on the team anymore because of something i did/said.

time to surf the interwebs and maybe watch some pr0n.

payce.

one

today is novemeber 21, 2010 and i regret cutting my hair. i didn't get a haircut for 3.5 years and decided to chop it all off last month. the reason being so was that i started running everyday and it was during my lunch breaks at work. we have no showers at work so I just wiped myself off with a towel and went back to work. it just felt disgusting marinating in my own sweat with my hair all drenched. it feels so much better when i'm running and after i run now that my hair is short, but that is only an hour of my day. the rest of the time i feel so naked. i miss the way my hair feels. i did keep a little rat tail in the back so i have a little ounce of dignity left. it's the only thing that makes me feel normal.

my friends and i took a trip to nyc a few weeks ago. it was an eye opening experience. nyc is so different from sd. it's so fast paced and everything is so clustered and compact. although i thoroughly enjoyed the trip, i don't see myself living in that type of environment. it's too hectic for me. i like to be laid back and chill and take things at a slow pace.

i want to make it a point to blog on the regular again. i stopped blogging for a couple years. it was a good way for me to collect my thoughts and just throw them out there and i have no reason why i stopped. i guess you can just say i got lazy or stopped caring. i think all those social networking sites kinda killed it for me. everyone just went on myspace, or facebook, and now twitter. blogging just got lost in the loop. it took too much time and was too limited while those other sites offered so much more. plus it's fun to see what everyone else is doing and it's all jumbled onto one page.

i've been wanting to ask this one girl out. i'll refer to her as "anna". i see her occasionally and randomly. we met through some mutual friends and we hit it off right away. at least i think so. hahaha. if you ask her, it might be an entirely different story. but she's a little younger than i am and her school schedule doesn't match up well with my work schedule. so it's a weekends only deal. but thing is, i haven't been going out on weekends. i dunno, i dont wanna put in the work only to be let down. the holidays are coming up and school is out and i have days off from work so we'll see what happens.

yeah, there's no order to this thought process. i'm just typing the next thing that comes to mind. expect that from me. a bunch of nonsense cluttered into one space. i think that's it for now. time to bust out my uke and get a jam sesh going.

payce.