twenty four

i did a bunch of cleaning today. i woke up super early for no reason. i guess i'm used to it for work. but it was saturday and i was up at 6am. i went back to sleep since i realized what day it was. i finally got up around 9am and started cleaning the house. i vacuumed, did laundry, cleaned my room, and played music.

i've been looking for a workout bench and some dumbbells. i wanna start working out in my garage since i dont go to the gym anymore. i've been eating salads for the past 2 weeks. my goal is to drop 30 lbs by march. that's when we go to thailand. they dont sell clothes in xxl so i need to drop down. i dont plan on bringing a bunch of clothes. i'm just gonna buy what i need over there.

twenty three

i stayed at work extra late today. it rained and traffic was horrible so i just decided to do some overtime.

and i finally started my x-mas shopping. got gifts for my nephew, bro and sis-in-law. now i just gotta buy gifts for mom, dad, and sis. hopefully i'll be done tomorrow but i doubt it.

i plan on doing a bunch of housework tomorrow. clean my room, clean the music room, clean the bathroom, clean the garage.

i bought some bleach for my hair. i plan on doing half of it blonde. the left half. hahaha. we'll see how that goes.

payce.

twenty two

today felt like such a long day. it rained this morning. i left my house earlier than usual but i got to work later than normal. damn the rain and bad drivers.

had the luncheon/banquet at work today. this is the first time the food was actually good. we had salted pepper chicken wings, beef broccoli, salad, and noodles. i need to thank whoever chose to order that food.

left work early to go tailgate at the stadium. today was the last chargers home game for the season. played a bunch of games of beer pong. mari got pretty faded and started talking shit to some dude when we went in line for the bathroom. it was getting ridiculous. i had to tell her to calm down. it was funny though. i love tailgating. it's so much fun.

met up with my cousin raymond after the game. he's from the bay so he was rooting for the niners. he was texting me during the game "i'll see you after the niners win". and i responded with "i guess i wont be seeing you tonight". hahahaha.

i'm so hungry right now. debating if i should just sleep or grab a quick snap. hmmmm....

payce.

twenty one

i had a lot of fun today at work. i played alot of music. i took a bunch of breaks and had jam sessions. there's this girl, andie, who i use to jam with all the time but things get busy at work so we don't get a chance to sometimes. it's been about 3 or 4 months since the last time we jammed. and today was a good session. it was a little hard to play the songs we normally play because i always had the guitar before. now i only play the ukulele. but we made it work. and later on i had another jam sesh with junko. usually i'm the one inviting her to go and jam but this time she invited me. so i knew she actually wanted to play. sometimes i feel like im forcing her but not this time. she's a fun girl.

i had intentions to go meet up with my cousin who is in town. but i got home around 930pm and i still had to pack all the things for the tailgate tomorrow so i decided not to go. i'll see him at the game tomorrow anyways. im trying to get to work extra early tomorrow because im leaving extra early to go to the game. and i just found out that we're having a luncheon/banquet tomorrow so i gotta do all my work early.

me and andie also got asked to play at the luncheon tomorrow but luckily andie said that she had to leave early as well. we woulda played "baby" by justin bieber. hahahaha.

twenty

too tired to write about anything. there wasn't really much to write about in the first place. work, then bowling and now i'm home. won 3 out of 4 games in bowling today. first two games were money. the 3rd game, i got tired and couldn't throw the ball very well. my middle finger started hurting in the first game also. my wrist feels really sore right now. it'll probably be super sore tomorrow morning.

trying to think of songs to cover on the uke. tried playing "best of me" by starting line. i need to work on it. currently learning "santeria" by sublime.

about to crash out already.

payce.

nineteen

forgot to blog the past few days. it's been kinda hectic and fun. didn't do anything crazy last friday. just went to work and stayed in cuz i had the company billiards tournament the next morning.

the tourney started at 9am on saturday. it lasted all the way up until 5pm. so it felt like a long day. we played the team tournament first. my team went the distance in the first round. it was a best of 7 series and we had to use all 7 games. we ended up losing but it was a close match. our opponents were all guys who played in a league. we only had one guy on our team that played in a league. in the singles competition, i beat 3 players and advanced to the quarter finals. in that round i had to play my own teammate. it was a best of 3 series and we took that game to the limit also. he won the first game and then i rallied back and took the second game. in the third game, i had a chance to win it but i choked on a easy shot and he took it from there. at least i lost to my own teammate, someone i like. and it turns out my teammate ended up running the gauntlet and took the singles title!!!! i was so proud of him. we spent endless hours in my garage practicing and it payed off for one of us. we ended up celebrating at toro sushi after for some sake bombs. we had said in the last team practice that if any one of us wins, we would do sake bombs. and sure enough, we did!!!!

after toro sushi on saturday night, i went home and relaxed for a bit before i had to go to eastlake tavern to celebrate abie's b-day. got to see some old high school friends that i haven't seen in a long time. it was fun but i didn't even feel like drinking cuz we ate so much sushi and the sake bombs were creeping up on me.

sunday was the chargers game and they creamed the chiefs. it was very satisfying, since the chiefs are in first place right now. if they lose one more, we take over first place. there's only 3 games left in the season so we gotta handle business. i think we can pull it off and head into the playoffs.

today felt like a long day too. i left my house at 730am and didn't get home til 930 pm. i did overtime at work and then headed straight to my parents place so we could go visit my grandma in the hospital. she's in a lot better shape now. i'm glad to see her getting better. hopefully she gets her strength back and is able to get out of the hospital soon.

that's it for tonight. hopefully i don't forget to blog tomorrow.

payce.

eighteen

met up with joel for lunch today. we went to habaneros and i got the pollo asado burrito. i always get that when i'm there. it's probably the best pollo asado burrito i've had compared to any other place i've gotten it at. but when i got back to work, i felt all cold. it was a weird feeling. it was almost like the chills. i was starting to feel weak and it was hard to concentrate. it might just be food coma kickin in. i did have trouble finishing the burrito.

junko cme over again tonight after work. she brought over dinner. kfc. good call. and then we played pool afterwards. we played for like 4 hours. it was so much fun that it felt like 30 mins. she's really starting to open up to me. she's dancing and singing in front of me. before she wouldn't even talk to me. this is a huge turn around. i have no idea what i'm doing different. i guess she just finally gave in and when she did, she realized that i'm not that bad. hahaha. she's a lot of fun to be around. maybe this could be the start of something special?

ha. i'll keep dreaming.

payce.

seventeen

went on my daily run today at my lunch break at work but i didn't do my half mile uphill run. i did the 2 mile flat ground and it feels so easy compared to the uphill one. i know the distance is way more but that incline is just killer. i'm huffing and puffing even before halfway up that hill. but i did that 2 miles and i still had energy to go for some more. tomorrow i'll do that hill again and see if i can get further.

tonight was probably our best night of bowling as a team. sometimes one of us is in a slump and the rest of the team has to carry them. sometimes it's two of us in a slump and one person carrying the whole team. tonight, everybody was on fire. that's the first time that that's ever happened. i felt so good bowling tonight. my 2 handed approach is coming along. i think i injured my wrist so much that i can't carry a 16 lb. ball with one hand anymore. i like this two handed approach though. it's unique.

tomorrow we play pool again. just me and junko, since we're the worst on our team. we need the most work. the other guys can carry their own weight but me and junko have a lot of work cut out for us.

sixteen

played pool with my team today after work. this was the first time we've all played together. it's either two of us or sometimes three. our tournament is this saturday and i can honestly say that i'm not ready. i dont think i'll win anything cuz i feel like i'm the worst player on the team. at least i have my own table that i can practice on.

i dont feel like going to sleep. i've been watching pool videos for quite some time now and i want go to my table and actually practice. but i know i have work tomorrow and i gotta get up early cuz i need to leave early. bowling league is tomorrow. tuesdays are the new fridays for me. it's my fun day. looking forward to tomorrow.

payce.

fifteen

went to the chargers game today. got pretty faded during the tailgate. played alot of beer pong and drank even more. also had good grub. the game itself was horrible. i dont have much to say about it. the chargers got man handled in all phases of the game. rivers basically took himself out the mvp race with that performance. the place was packed with raider fans. i hate to say that charger fans are the worst....but they are. there should be no reason that the stadium has more fans from the opposing team than the home team. it's just pathetic.

our friends got their car broken into and their shiite stolen while we were at the game. they got all their dj equipment taken. that sucks so bad. that might be $3,000+ worth of equipment gone. i hate people who steal.

came home and played some playstation move. tried archery for the first time and it was super fun. i might play again tomorrow. it's tough to get the hang of but i like it. my arm was starting to get sore in the middle of playing. i'm not used to that type of motion.

i can tell this week is gonna be a long week. effff me.

payce.

fourteen

i had intentions to go into work today for some overtime. but it felt so good to sleep in. got up around 10am and decided to stop by my parents to drop something off real quick. a 5 min trip turned into 5 hours. my parents asked to drive them to the hospital to see my grandma. and then we went to go buy food. and then my mom wanted to go shopping.

my grandma is not in good shape. when we visited her earlier today, she kept going in and out of consciousness. she couldn't even talk. she was just groaning in pain. i'm not even sure if she recognized me. she had this dazed look. it could possibly be all the medication. i feel so bad for her.

my friend christine came over today for a little jam sesh. she's so beautiful. inside and out. and her voice is amazing. i love the fact that i can be myself around her. she's very comfortable with the crazy things i do. other girls get offended but she laughs and joins the madness. it's fun to have a friend like that. i cherish our friendship. <3

thirteen

once again i woke up super late. i had this feeling that it was late but not as late as it really was. when i got up and looked at the clock i was expecting to see 745 or something. but in reality it was 857. i wanted to be in at work by 830. hahahaha. oh well.

tonight was the vh1 divas show at miramar. the line to get in was suuuuuper long. i swear it was at least 2 miles. it was a giant clusterfuck. i was expecting some sort of order since it was on a miltary base but it was the worst concert entrance experience ever. all the other concerts i've been to had multiple entrances so it wasnt one giant mess to get in. this one was only one entrance. 15,000+ people + one entrance = no bueno. but i got to see katy perry, nicki minaj, and sugarland. paramore performed via satelite tv. booooo! there was some fine print on the website but not on the actual poster. i would have been pissed if i went exclusively for them. we took off early cuz it was cold as shiite. we wanted to see keri hilson but she was gona be last and there would have been a giant mess trying to get out. so we bounced early to avoid the traffic. i think that was the smartest thing we did all night. hahahaha. and we also ran into our buddy, who is a manager of some catering company. he was the one in charge of all the food stands there. he could have hooked us up with allthe food but we didn't see him until after we were done eating. oh well.

all in all, tonight was a really good night. here's to tomorrow.

payce.

twelve

today felt like such a long day at work. i hate coming in late cuz that means i have to stay super late. oh well.

junko came over today after work. she's that cute japanese girl that works with me. i have tried for so long for her to go out with me. she's rejected me time and time again. but for some reason, she decided to come over. maybe it's cuz i was one of the few people that visited her while she was in the hospital. i even gave her a ukulele. but anyways, she came over to play some pool. i cooked dinner tonight. we had steak, chicken, rice and veggies. she's starting to open up and trust me. before she would hardly talk to me. now she's down to hang out and do stuff. i remmeber her telling that she didn't want to associate with people at work because it always leads to drama. my rebuttle was that we spend most of our waking hours at work and why not try to make it a little more pleasant by befriending the people around you. it might make the day go by faster and easier. but yeah, we had dinner and played pool for about 2 hours or so. she is a ot better than i expected. she said she sucked and i've played with other girls before but she was actualy good. almost as good as me. she would probably be better than me if i didnt have a table.

tomorrow is the sugarland concert. paramore, katy perry, nicki minaj, keri hilson plus more are playing for the troops. it's the vh1 divas show. it sounds pretty gay but i don't care and im super stoked for the show. i'm not sure how it's gonna work out cuz it's on the military base and i can't get on without a sponsor. my buddy richard said we could meet at my work and he could drive from there but i tried calling him today to confirm but no answer. i'll leave him a message in a bit. otherwise i have no means of getting in. hopefully everything works out.

today was a good day.

payce.

eleven

today was one of the funnest days at work. i work up super late and got in to work around 930am. but when i got to my desk i got a pleasant surprise. i had a new neighbor. junko. she's this cute, little japanese girl. she was gone from work for like 6 months because she had some sort of tumor growing inside her so she had o have surgeries to have them removed. plus recovery time. so i havent seen her in a few months. i visited her in the hospital a little while back. but i was sooooo stoked to have her sitting in the desk in front of me. the whole time she was there felt like an hour or two. it was just good times. but as soon as she left, the day slowed down to a snails pace. the last half hour of work felt like 6 hours. hahahaha. talk about the other side of the spectrum.

i also invited junko to my house tomorrow night to play some pool. she has always rejected me in the past but this time she said yes. wooooo hooooooo! this is because i asked her to join my pool team for our work tournament. one of my teammates had to bail so i asked her to fill the spot. luckily she's down!!!!


after work i went to my parents house so we could visit my grandma in the hospital. she's not in good shape. i love her so much. she was just struggling to breathe. she was even tied down to the bed because she kept ripping the tubes out of her face. her hands were covered in blood and she asked me to remove the ties so she could free her hands. and when i told her i'm not allowed to, she gave me this pissed off look. i felt so bad that i couldn't untie her hands. i really wanted to but it was for her own good. i wanted to cry. i'm praying that she'll be ok.

sleeping with a heavy heart tonight.

payce.

ten

when my alarm went of this morning, i didn't want to get up. i probably snoozed it like 5 times. my alarm goes off at 6am. i didn't get out of bed til 645ish. the crazy part was this weird dream i had. i dreamed that hulk hogan was my step-dad of some sort. Or at least he was a guardian or someone in charge of me. we ended up going to some public event that he had to be at. it was at some kind of university or something. there were a bunch of people and we ran into some chick that he was in to. the crazy part was that I was in to her also as soon as i saw her. i don't remember what happens but we decide to leave and it me and my buddies, and then hulk and his chick. i decided to slow down to watch her leave. she was so beautiful. but as she exited my viewpoint, i turned around to see everyone gone. i was all alone in this giant ass university not knowing which way to go. i just roamed the whole place not to find a soul in sight. i eventually woke up because all i did was walk around and get lost and i was starting to panic. hahaha. yeah, i told you it was weird.

i felt all out of it today at work. i kept sneezing. at least this time my nose wasn't all runny.

when i got to bowling league tonight, i felt all energized. i spent the whole day at work in a slump. but now that i was somewhere fun, i had all the energy in the world. i didn't feel sick at all.

we started doing this $! bet at bowling league. every time you leave up a split or 10 pin, $1 is on the line. if you convert your split or 10 pin, everyone owes you a dollar. And if you don't convert, you owe everyone else a dollar. it's just a nice little competition to get us going. it makes things interesting. you don't wanna pay the other people any money so you're more to determined to hit your shot. otherwise i'd think that we'd just say "oh well" every time one of those shots came up.

nine

i woke up feeling like a bag of crap today. my nose was runny all day and i was coughing up a storm. people were telling me to go home at work. but i need to do overtime to pay for some recent purchases and for holiday shopping. you gotta do what you gotta do.

i ran for the first time in two weeks. i thought i'd be all out of shape but i think the rest did me good. i didn't feel as winded as i normally do but the air outside was super dry. that didn't help my nose at all. it seemed like i was tasting blood near the end of my run. i dunno, i'll give it another go tomorrow. we'll see how i feel. i wanna sweat out this sickness of mine. i dont wanna take a break from running to get over this cold. it's just way too hard to get back in the groove of things when you stop. and i've been stopped for two weeks. it's time to get back on track.

it's almost 9pm and i feel extra tired already. i guess it's time to crash.

payce.

eight

i did nothing today except watch football and eat. hahaha. that's a typical sunday.

i didn't really feel good all day so i had no desire to go to my pool table and just shoot around. i felt like i had been slapped in the face. both sides. my face felt all hot, especially my ears, and my eyes burned. i dunno what it is. i didn't do anything crazy last night so i have no excuse. hopefully i feel better tomorrow.

chargers kicked the colts ass. that's what i was expecting. peyton manning sucks against the 3-4 defense. i hope we get to see them in the playoffs. assuming we make the playoffs. speaking of which, the bill for playoffs tickets came in the mail this week. i don't really have any cash at the moment due to my recent new york trip and pool table purchase.

i gotta sleep super early tonight. it's now 10pm. i've been sleeping at 5am every night since last tuesday. i think me feeling sick is gonna help me go to sleep. i usually don't sleep til 1 or 2am. i think now is a good time to call it quits.

payce.

seven

today was another lazy day. i didn't do much except watch football, eat, and play pool. i woke up around noon from a call from one of my coworkers, timmy. we're having a company pool tournament soon so he wanted to come over and play pool.

timmy, my other coworker john, richard and gerlei came over to play pool. timmy brought over beers and chips. john brought chicken nuggets and fries. i was cooking on the grill too. it was funny when i started the grill though. i had the heat on super high and i lit a lighter to start the flames. the flame burst and burnt all the hair off my arms. it was kinda scary and funny at the same time. note to self: turn the heat on low when starting the grill. hahahaha.

timmy is actually pretty damn good at pool. he's in a league and plays every week. i'm glad he's on my team for the company pool tournament. john is ok. he has a soft touch and he's fairly accurate as long as he doesn't have a long or straight shot. i'm just learning so i got a long way to go. but i have a pool table so i can get the most practice.

diana came over after everyone left. diana is a good friend of mine that i've known since i was a kid. she is probably the craziest girl i've ever met. she is just down to do whatever. it's like having one of the dudes around, except she's sexy. we just had beers and chatted about our recent trips and her current dating situation and all the shenanigans that we get into. it was good to catch up. she's only in town until wednesday so we're trying to make the most of it. she's a flight attendant so she travels all the time. she might be coming over again tomorrow just to hang out and watch some football and maybe even play more pool. i hope she does.

it's another one of those nights where i dont wanna go to sleep. i just wanna watch some movies or play music or something. i should sleep though so i can get up early to watch football.

payce.

six

i got woken up earlier than expected this morning. i went to bed around 5am cuz i was finishing off the rest of season 1 of glee. so i was expecting to wake up around noon or so. but i got a call at 10am from my mom asking to get picked up. they went black friday shopping and they bought stuff too big to fit in their car. i happen to drive a truck. so they called me. when i got there, they weren't even done shopping yet. so i waited another 30 minutes for them to finish up. that kinda pissed me off. i was expecting them to be waiting by the car or at the store front ready to load all the goods into my truck. i could have been sleeping still. oh well, i love my parents. i'll do anything for them. (:

tonight we went to korean bbq and karaoke for my buddy joel's b-day. i thought there would be a grip of peeps showing up but i was wrong. there was only 8 of us but it was cool. it was me , joel, his sister, her husband, abie, jennifer, jawee, and ernie. everyone there, with the exception of joel, his sister, and her husband, i haven't seen in a long while. so it was good to have them around. i didn't really eat at the korean bbq joint cuz my parents came over to my house a few hours earlier and we had dinner. but i did sing my heart out in karaoke. i know i can't sing very well but i enjoy it. we did a bunch of hits like bon jovi's "livin' on a prayer", ludacris ft. justin bieber in "baby", lionel richie's "hello", wham's "careless whisper", rick astley's "never gonna give you up" and so much more. i can't even remember them all. we were there for like 4 hours but it didnt feel that long. you can never go wrong with karaoke + alcohol.

i'm tired as shiite.

payce.

five

today was thanksgiving. i woke up super late. like around noon, cuz we stayed up playing pool all night and then i did a glee marathon. hahaha. i ended up going to my cousins' house and ate a grip of food. turkey, ham, roast beef, pancit, mashed potatoes, and so much more. we went about 3 rounds before we tapped out. and then we played madden 11 on xbox. i suck at xbox. im so used to the ps3 controller that i felt all weird just holding an xbox controller. my cousin and i are both hardcore chargers fans so i forbade any of us from using the chargers. we went random teams. and guess which team i randomly got? the team i hate the most. the raiders. all my other cousins were laughing their asses off cuz of this. i dont blame them. i probably would be too if i werent me. hahahaha. we never got to finish our game cuz i had to leave and go to my uncle's house. i was losing 7-0 though. i'll count it as a loss.

last year's thanksgiving, i went to my uncles house and walked in.....to the twilight zone. one of the first faces i saw was my coworker! wtf? i thought i walked into the wrong house. he's one of the top dogs at work and i had no idea we had mutual relatives. it's not that i dont like him or anything but i dont like talking about work when im not at work. hahahaha. but yeah, i was at my uncle's house today and there were alot of my cousins that i havent seen in a while. needless to say, we all got pretty faded. someone got put in a boston crab, a teabag occurred, and also an assface. it was super fun. it's just a damn shame that i live almost an hour away.

me, my cousin charlie, and his brother in law anthony are all planning to go to thailand in march. im super stoked about this. anthony used to live in thailand so he was telling me all about the good stuff over. this got me so excited. we were game planning our strategy and thinking of all the things we can do and palces we can visit. i'm definitely gonna be bringing my slr there. i gotta start saving up an paying my debts off so i can enjoy this trip as much as possible.

my life is so good right now. one love.

payce.

four

my pool table got delivered today. it's pretty dope. i love it. my buddy richard came over and we played for like 4 hours straight. my back hurts from all the playing we did. but it was well worth it. i have a feeling that tomorrow i will do the same damn thing and i will love it.

i did a glee marathon after playing pool. i love that show. i wish i was on it. it makes me feel good about being a musician. it's just a feel good show. i can relate to allt he things that those kids are going through. being outcasts and working hard at something you love even though it's not the "cool" thing to do.

tomorrow is thanksgiving and i've already been munching like a madman. i'm pretty sure i gained about 10 lbs this week. i'll probably add another 5 lbs tomorrow alone. i guess i'll just have to go running like crazy after the holidays.

my toes are cold. it's time to hit the sack.

payce.

three

tuesdays are one of my favorite days because of bowling league. for the past couple years now i've been in a bowling league on tuesday nights. this season however is the first time i've had a handpicked team with people i care about and trust. all my other teams have been with people i met there. don't get me wrong, some of the people i've met are great. but it's a different feeling when you're playing with someone you've known for a while. there's just that connection that you cant beat. tonight for example was one of those moment that only friends can have. my teammate turns to me and asks "what kind of detergent do you use?" "i dunno. tide of something." "why?" "cuz you smell good." "that's not detergent.....that's carne asada!!!" hahahahaha. i can only have those types of conversation with people i care about. and the funny thing is, she kept smelling me throughout the night. i guess she really did love the smell of tide.

i dont have work tomorrow cuz i ordered a pool table and it's getting delivered so i asked for the day off. i'm pretty stoked to have a pool table. i've always wanted one. it's something that me and my dad can do. i also plan to do alot of cleaning and preparation for thanksgiving. this year, we're having t at my house since i'm a new homeowner. hopefully i can be a good host.

i think i've been sleeping wrong cuz my back and chest have been hurting. it kinda feels like i did waaaaaay too many pushups and pullups. i know it can't be that because i can't do any pullups and i can barely do pushups. and i recently added one more pillow to the mix so that changed the angle of how i was laying down.

i love it when it's cold. it feel good to just bundle myself up in my blanket and crunch up to try to get warm. it's a good feeling. i sleep so much better when i'm cold. but thing is, i always wake up hot. i kick off my blanket and it's just musty heat all around me. hahahaha

that's it for now. time to hit the sack.

payce.

two

went to the monday night football game tonight. chargers whooped the broncos' asses. just as expected. i love tailgating and being at the games. it's just a fun environment and everyone is having a good time. the thing i don't like though is having to transport all the gear around. i'm in charge of the grill, tent, chairs, tickets, and pretty much anything else of importance. all the big stuff are with me. i'd really like it if i got some help every now and then. but other than that, i get to be with my closest friends and we can forget about the real world for a few hours and just enjoy the moment. thank you chargers for all the wonderful times. hopefully we can win a superbowl in my lifetime. that way all the haters can shut up about "how many rings do you have?" i hate that argument. especially when the last ring your team won was 20 years ago.

tomorrow is a potluck at work. i used to participate in potlucks at work but everyone there is a vulture. there are alot of good stuff that people bring but it always gets eaten with the quickness. if you're not first in line, then you aint gettin' none. some poeple just have no respect for others and just take as much as they can get. some people don't even bring food to share and just take. that is why i stopped participating in these potlucks. too many inconsiderate people. i'll just bring my own lunch and enjoy what i have.

my face burns. it feels like i got sunburnt but i wasn't out in the sun. it's probably wind burn cuz it was cold tonight and my face is the only thing that was exposed to the elements.

i don't want to sleep. i feel like just staying up and maybe watching a movie or reading a book or something. but it is 20 past midnight and i got work tomorrow morning. i also have bowling league tomorrow night, which i am looking forward to. i love the fact that i now have friends on my team. the past 2 years i have been bowling with random people. i mean, i became friends with them after the fact. but it's just a different feeling bowling with people i can trust and have known for a long time. i can just be myself and say what i want to and act how i want to. i no longer have to hold back in fear of the teammates lashing out against me or not wanting me on the team anymore because of something i did/said.

time to surf the interwebs and maybe watch some pr0n.

payce.

one

today is novemeber 21, 2010 and i regret cutting my hair. i didn't get a haircut for 3.5 years and decided to chop it all off last month. the reason being so was that i started running everyday and it was during my lunch breaks at work. we have no showers at work so I just wiped myself off with a towel and went back to work. it just felt disgusting marinating in my own sweat with my hair all drenched. it feels so much better when i'm running and after i run now that my hair is short, but that is only an hour of my day. the rest of the time i feel so naked. i miss the way my hair feels. i did keep a little rat tail in the back so i have a little ounce of dignity left. it's the only thing that makes me feel normal.

my friends and i took a trip to nyc a few weeks ago. it was an eye opening experience. nyc is so different from sd. it's so fast paced and everything is so clustered and compact. although i thoroughly enjoyed the trip, i don't see myself living in that type of environment. it's too hectic for me. i like to be laid back and chill and take things at a slow pace.

i want to make it a point to blog on the regular again. i stopped blogging for a couple years. it was a good way for me to collect my thoughts and just throw them out there and i have no reason why i stopped. i guess you can just say i got lazy or stopped caring. i think all those social networking sites kinda killed it for me. everyone just went on myspace, or facebook, and now twitter. blogging just got lost in the loop. it took too much time and was too limited while those other sites offered so much more. plus it's fun to see what everyone else is doing and it's all jumbled onto one page.

i've been wanting to ask this one girl out. i'll refer to her as "anna". i see her occasionally and randomly. we met through some mutual friends and we hit it off right away. at least i think so. hahaha. if you ask her, it might be an entirely different story. but she's a little younger than i am and her school schedule doesn't match up well with my work schedule. so it's a weekends only deal. but thing is, i haven't been going out on weekends. i dunno, i dont wanna put in the work only to be let down. the holidays are coming up and school is out and i have days off from work so we'll see what happens.

yeah, there's no order to this thought process. i'm just typing the next thing that comes to mind. expect that from me. a bunch of nonsense cluttered into one space. i think that's it for now. time to bust out my uke and get a jam sesh going.

payce.